This is the opening track of the album and is a kind of introduction, the track is somewhere between an intro and a real song and contains several different styles and elements. The set is a hotel room in Hungary, present time. It is the beginning of this album, and contains the beginning of a chain of thought, the end of a mindless journey, the conclusion to a question that is yet not clear to the listener and the beginning of a child's relation to love and sex.
This is one of the simpler songs on the album, but of course with subtlety and finesse. We are entering the story a few days earlier, on the arrival in Budapest. Someone is coming to Budapest to find answers, to meet someone. There is a connection to a situation in Budapest earlier that we will find out about later in the concept. How much of a person's disposition and reality derives from himself or herself? How much is it in relation to the surroundings? There is a meeting, confusion, seeking...
A picture of two unique persons forming a life together, fighting against norms and patterns that they have inherited from their pasts. At one point in my life I was devastated and asked for some God to give me some answers. I am not a religious man, but I am not non-religious either if you catch my drift. The only thing I know is that I don't know anything. Anyway, I was suddenly filled with a calm and started smiling because it was as if someone had just told me that if I get the answers there is no point in living - life is the tool to get the answers. It was like asking for answers in order to be able to find the exact same answers myself. I wanted to put some of that feeling into this song, since it runs through everybody's life in one way or another.
During the recording of “Entropia” (our first album) me and my wife had a miscarriage and it was very hard on us. It was one of the worst experiences of my life. It was not the loss of a tiny organic something, to me it was the loss of several lives - the child and the life he/she would have had and the lives me and my wife would have had. History took a sharp turn for us that day and I cannot leave it behind altogether. That mix of joy, grief and anger is also found in the music and the lyric of the song I think. A struggle.
This is simply a love song that I wrote to my wife, in this concept it represents the belief and the strength in words and rituals, in faith. Some of the themes reoccur later in the concept to remind us of this vow and how fragile human faith can be sometimes.
This is one of the darkest songs of the album. It is simple in structure but complex in emotion. We are trying to build a card house starting with apathy, going over a spectra of sadness, yearning, reconciliation and anger, to cross the line of hysteria back into apathy - constantly with the same main message; let me go. It is a blend of monologue and dialog in a shattered relationship. We are now starting to find out why we start off in Budapest.
One night my wife dreamed that someone she knew tried to kill herself. The dream was so vivid she couldn't shake it off and finally she called her friend. It turned out that she had tried to hang herself three times that same night. A few years later I experienced someone trying to hang him/herself and I got there just in time. For a minute I couldn't get him/her down and I started to panic completely before I finally got the sudden insight that I should add my weight to the rope, and it broke. At one point earlier I thought of rushing to the kitchen for a knife to cut it with, but I found that it is impossible to leave the room when someone is hanging from the ceiling.
The dance of love and breaking up, the different turns and pleads.
This is an instrumental piece for my wife that I actually wrote several years ago. Once again, the contrast between the love and the strange situation we find in this concept.
Another instrumental piece, between an intro and a song going back to several themes from the album in different moods. We are back on Remedy Lane again, with a little more understanding. There is an uneasy pulse running through this track, which captures the restless feeling of the quest of this concept, to find truth, to be free...
...but what is freedom? We are back at the first visit in Hungary, the one slightly described in the beginning of the concept. This is the beginning of the end, or the beginning of another beginning?
This is actually an old song that I wrote when I was 15 or 16 years old. Since the concept was to have a track about being heartbroken at a young age, I simply thought that this song could be a good idea to bring in, since it was written in that exact position - it is the real thing.
And so we are back in that bed, in that hotel room where and when we started off. We have been given clues and glimpses of why we are here, and this song is bringing it all together, revealing the flaws of the human heart and mind, questioning the search for a freedom that does not ask you back how it works for you and the ones around you. Once I thought it would be a terrible thing if we were not enough on our own, if we are only good enough in relation with others, but then again, maybe that's why we are here in the first place? To make each other better, to heal each other's wounds...
There is an expression in the English language, to ‘take a walk down memory lane’ - which means to visit your past or going through a nostalgic trip. In a way, that is what happened in the concept, but with more stress on reconcile with that past and to find remedy for the crisis that the album is about.
This is another step in the development of Pain Of Salvation. One of our trademarks would probably be the seamless blend of deep emotional structures and skillful technical architecture, and that is more present than ever on this album. If you are looking for a band that sounds just like your favorite band, just forget about us. If you are looking for a band that will make you forget about your favorite band, we are here, just walk down Remedy Lane a few times and you will never be the same again...